30 years later, that day has finally arrived. My first book, Random Thoughts, has been published! It is now available on Amazon.com.
Waiting so long for something makes its arrival feel a bit strange. It’s not how I expected. I wonder if anything ever is. Part of me wants to shout from the rooftops, give a big Woohoo! and attempt the cartwheels I haven’t done since those days when this dream first began. Another part of me thinks I can’t make a big deal of it because…well, that’s the question. I feel like my heart is being held back…in an attempt at humility? because I’m afraid no one will like it? because people publish books every day so in the grand scheme of things it’s not that grand? because it took so much longer than I had hoped, so now it’s more relief that it’s done than excitement that I feel? because I would love to be able to show it to my dad, and it’s two years too late? because it’s so much more exciting and significant to me than everyone else around me? I’m sure it’s some combination of those things, and more.
What I do know is that I’m grateful to be published. I thank God for the opportunity and pray the book is a blessing to at least one person out there.
I also know I do not plan to stop here. God willing, we will next see a children’s book by Kerry Nenn.
I wonder what it will feel like to see that in print.